The Cave

May 10, 2011 § Leave a comment

“I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears” -Mumford and Sons “The Cave”

Ok, I’m clearly way off schedule lately. I get that way when I’m not in school. So, here’s some music for Monday (plus a day).

Its weird that I haven’t posted any Mumford & Sons yet. I’m obsessed with them. OBSESSED. Hey, Marcus, call me! (He’s the lead singer…FYI). I almost peed my pants when I saw them on the Grammy’s. TMI? Get over it. I was excited.

And about 4 books on my summer reading list came from Marcus’ book club on the Mumford & Sons web site. When I was thumbing through some Shakespeare sonnets one day (totally normal, right?? Thought so.) I realized that one of their songs is based on a Shakespeare sonnet. Tally that up for another point for the Sons. They’re freaking amazing.

I love that their songs are subliminally religious. “Awake my soul, for you were made to meet your maker”?? ok…maybe not subliminally. But they aren’t in your face in such a way that you would only play them on Christian radio. I mean, they do cuss quite extensively. But it makes the things they say more meaningful; like they come from the heart and not just what they’re “supposed” to be singing about. Passion.

It’s empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you’ve left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s hand

So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be

And I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

I find this song incredibly moving. About facing your fears and doing what you were called to do, even when people are trying to convince you that it isn’t right. Its also about helping each other do what best.

I, of course, love the words about finding strength in pain and changing. Also, the line about holding on to hope.

When this song comes on my iPod (or I play it on repeat, either one works), I belt it out like an anthem. Every line speaks to me and I find myself caught in a determination to live life fully, to challenge who I’ve been, and keep hoping in spite of every obstacle in my path.

What do you think of it?


Poison and Wine

May 2, 2011 § Leave a comment

“I don’t have a choice but I’d still choose you.” -The Civil Wars. Poison and Wine.

Love this. Its beautiful.

Just listen and enjoy it. I’m home enjoying some time with my mom for the first time in months. So, this will probably be my only post for now.

*Now, go listen to “To Whom It May Concern” by The Civil Wars. Beautiful.


April 25, 2011 § Leave a comment

“Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?”

I love the mellow, soulful ease of this song. Apparently this was written for Isaac’s wife when she was in Australia and he really missing her. So he just had to keep going, living his life and waiting for her to come home.

I love the lyrics! I feel like he’s saying you can’t force happiness, can’t force yourself to be happy. But you can go about your life, do what you love, be who you are, not necessarily search for happiness, but let it come to you through your life.

Once you stop looking for happiness, it comes to you.

So once you live your life not looking for happiness, but maybe taking the focus off of yourself, helping others, doing what you love for its own sake, but not for the sake of finding happiness, praying to pray, then the happiness is an added benefit. When its the main focus of what we do, we force happiness and its never pure.

Ok, that’s what I get. What do the lyrics say to you??

Happiness is just outside my window
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home
Home, home, home

Sun Hands

April 18, 2011 § Leave a comment

“I’ll endure the night
For the promise of Light.” -Local Natives “Sun Hands”

I told you I like lyrics. And these are awesome. For real.

But, I also love the beat, the interesting vocal tones, the harmony, the passion I can feel from them as they sing.

I stumbled across the Local Natives sometime last summer and I’ve pretty much been addicted ever since. So, addicted, in fact, that my sister and I would even sing it at the top of mountains on hikes throughout Yellowstone last summer. Yeah…I know…we’re weird. Good thing there was no one around to really hear it.

One of my favorite lines says “Even if the morning never comes, my hands are blessed, to’ve touched the sun.”

The idea here being that even we should be appreciative for what we’ve had, even if we never have it again. We have to note the beauty for having it for the time we did. Maybe a person, maybe an experience, maybe a feeling. Nothing lasts forever, neither the good or the bad. But, we can accept the loss with gratitude for the experience it brought us. The blessings it left us.


Ok, I have no idea if that’s what they meant by that. But its what I got from it.

Agree? What do you get?

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Music for Meditation

February 17, 2011 § Leave a comment

If anyone still reads this, hello there! I’ve been super busy lately, but I’m determined to get back to blogging…mostly just because its a good reflective project for me, and if anyone gets anything out of it, excellent. Oddly enough, my sister blogged about music today, which just further proves that she is my soulmate since we’re thinking on the same page. Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how certain music evokes certain feelings. In fact, I often find myself getting lost in a song because the lyrics speak to something I’m feeling, but trying to supress. And once one song comes on, that suppressed feeling is brought to the surface, I find myself letting settle in, playing songs on repeat and allowing my heart to feel.

Moral of the story: I actually LIKE the music most people think is depressing. I always have. In high school, it was probably a minor expression of ridiculously unnecessary teenage angst. Now I find it a vehicle for expressing necessary emotions. I love when things I feel are said and song so beautifully by other people. I think it also helps me not feel so alone knowing that other people feel the things I do.

Usually, I listen to mellow music when I’m driving. There isn’t much else to do, and I can be alone with thoughts. Honestly, some times I don’t have the time to let myself feel fully. I’ll have to refocus, write or something. But, while I’m driving, I can think, pray and even cry without anyone knowing I’m doing it. Its cathartic.

Today, I wanted to share some of the music I turn tow when I’m really feeling lonely, but a lot of it has a really hopeful tone as well. The more I’ve allowed myself to really feel, the more I feel this is really the key. I’m allowed to be lonely, but I continue to find ways to make alone time useful and therefore, not lonely, per se. When I allow myself to compare my virtual worry-free past to my present, the contrast points out my pain. Then I can feel this, so long as I’m conscious of the fact that this pain is ultimately good. Feeling this, allowing myself to focus on it, is a skill that allows life joys to be felt under a magnifying glass. To feel the good things fully, I have to allow myself to feel the spectrum of emotions to their fullest.

What kind of songs do this? Lately, its not necessarily depressing music as you might would think of it, although I do love The Lighthouse’s Tale by Nickel Creek and Colorblind by Counting Crows. I often turn to Amos Moses or Ryan Adams to set a good mood. And if you know me, you know my absolute passion for Mumford and Sons. (Passion is synonymous with obsession, right? Yeah, thought so.) Well here are a few of my faves, not all, but I’ll give you more in another post soon:

This one is based on a homily Pope John Paul II gave after the tsunami his South Asia. Psychiatrists had the kids draw pictures of their homes before they were destroyed and then draw pictures of what they wanted their new houses to look like. Every one of them drew a bigger houses. “This time I’ll build a mansion. This time I’m not afraid.”

I’ve included a ton so far, but I think that this is the most hopeful, inspiring of all. I love it and listen to it on repeat. Best part: “And Hope, I’ve seen her body and weighed it on a scare. She live and breathes and makes conquests to me and I’ve never seen her fail.”

Somehow this one is upbeat, but so so uplifting. Oddly, while uplifting, I feel myself getting ever so slightly emotional when it comes on. Its hard to fully explain, something to do with the talent of the band, the lyrics and the story of the resolve to hold tight to hope no matter the challenge. LOVE it.

Let me know any other recommendations.

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